I think displacement is probably normal. It’s probably normal for you to walk through the door of the place you once called home, and feel completely out of place. That place isn’t entirely unwelcome. No- it’s just not your home.
You need to get out.
The tree is up this year, by some miracle. The ornaments, they were sadly neglected. I’m not sure what the point of having a tree is with no decorations. Well, Christmases around here were never perfect.
Is it sad that I have no idea what day Christmas is on this year?